There are times when I feel an unexplainable surge of guilt. Though I know I have not done anything wrong, nor can things change with my feeling guilty, but still I sit and think. Would things have been different if I was not a part of that particular incident? Could I have done something to change the outcome? Question such as these keep cropping up every now and the answers that my heart comes up with is “yes, things would have been different, were it not for you”. This conclusion leaves me feeling low and uneasy.
My friends tell me let go of my feeling of guilt. Their reasoning “you do not have the power to change destiny”. I agree with them, but somewhere I have this niggling doubt, maybe, maybe things would not have been the same. I try to tell myself that I have not harmed or hurt anyone intentionally, but somehow this line of reasoning fails to convince my heart and I am left emotionally drained. The incidents flash across my mind and I find myself entangled in a web of painful memories.
Are there others out there who feel this way or am I the only one, who carries the “guilt for no reason” baggage around
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Yes, I think it's a natural emotion, especially when a tragedy has happened. That's when the guilt hits you the strongest.
My father had moved into my home and had gone to his old house to grab some things to bring back while I was out.
I came home, some of his friends came over to meet him, but he didn't show up. They went to his house but he didn't answer the door when they rang, so came back here asking me to go over there.
When I arrived I found him dead laying on the bathroom floor, much too late to do anything. He'd had a heart attack.
Had I gone over sooner instead of letting his friends wait for him, I might have saved him. That's guilt. He was the closest person to me.
I think many people that lose a dear one suffer guilt, thinking what if, or if only... Nothing can change the events after they've happened, and permitting them to take over your life will only destroy you.
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